You, Unexpectedly

I spent countless nights hating on love
Every waking dream was torturous
Flashes of lies, betrayals and mockery haunted me
And the prospect of love induced burning tears.
I couldn’t believe that even though I gave my all,
Even though I loved more than I thought I could
Even though I gave more than I thought I owned,
Yet I ended up unlucky in affection, yet I ended up heartbroken.
The pieces of my broken heart sang of pain
Of sleepless nights filled with rage
Of questions- was I ever enough?
Of realizations- I will never be good enough.
Swirling darkness around my head,
Gut-wrenching pain inside me,
Delusions and questions consuming me,
But suddenly, I saw light.
Walking through the abyss of gloom,
I saw an opening
I saw an escape,
I saw another chance.
Although there was a chip in my armour
And there was apprehension in my mind,
There were way too many scars to hide,
And too many memories that didn’t subside,
Yet I took that escape
And I made that walk
And I opened my heart again
And I found love.
Love, like they describe in movies
Love, like they gush about in poetry,
Love, like they describe their lovers’ gaze with
Love, that I thought I could never win.
But here it was, the same love
That I yearned for but never got
Stealing my breath in all its glory
Promising to end all my misery.
I found it when I wasn’t searching,
But I found it when I needed it the most
Because his love not only made him love me
But somehow got me to also love myself deeply.